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Confessions in a parking booth pt3

Apr 7th

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Confessions in a parking booth pt.2

Apr 5th

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Confessions in a parking booth

Apr 5th

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Miss you!!!!!

Apr 1st

Mar 22nd

where i want to be in ten years… i dont want to feel pain anymore be married happy stop hating myself learn to love my life not be afraid acceptance with myself

Sep 22nd

pissed

i fucked up a math final and im fuckin infuriated. brandon tried to help but all i got was frustrated and i wanted to kill

Sep 20th

things that I never thought would happen to me.

within the last two years things i never thought would happen: I learned walk away from awful things had my heart broken move away learn to start over hike a 4000ft mountain go swing dancing go snowboarding (again.) ride a train to another place fall in love and be in love get up on stage and sing teach myself to wakeboard trust. love myself ride a jet ski go to a soccer game go to...

Aug 3rd

fuck.

how could you? i mean really, sneak up on me like this…after everything i let you back and crept up on me like a fuckin ninja and made me feel like shit again. the feeling just won’t go away…you’re like the plague…when i feel like im alright i get hit with this awful feeling again. last night i wanted to burn myself. I wanted to turn on my flat iron and lay it on my...

Jul 8th

fuckin hell you can’t do anyting right…like really? it’s driving me nuts…for give me for caring too much about my job…but i can’t stand and watch this…

Jul 2nd

Jun 30th

Jun 29th

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Jun 29th

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let's be honest

that bitch really doesn’t like me. i’m done kissing your ass… just admit it, you hate your life and everyone that doesn’t see it your way. you’re 30 yrs old…isn’t it time to stop guilting people to make them feel sorry for you?

Jun 8th

writing again

i need can think of a decent title for my blogs….i remember in my other journal i would use titles of songs that i would currently listening to. now not so much, it’s just whatever that is in my ipod at the moment. music let me rephrase that ‘pop music’ is now too manufactured, over produced to make the performer sound as if they can actually sing. but the blog today isnt...

May 15th

i'm ready

i’m ready to move past my pain that has been supressin for the last two years. im tired of it im tired of it ruining the most amazing thing that has happened to me since slice bread. you hurt me so bad you can’t even begin to see it. you raped me. you emotionally abused me. i thought i loved you. i thought you could change i was wrong. you took advantage of me and everyone that...

Apr 20th

hello i'm back

so new apt, new bf, new life or a step is more like it…so i’ve decided to go back or get back into shape again. learn to eat better and take care of myself again. cos earlier around last year i was starving myself to fit into the family i was staying with i was told i was ‘big’ or ‘extra meat’ so or ‘look like a whale’ and that brought me back to...

Apr 3rd

things to do for 2010

i know it sounds silly though i already have a list in mind from last year but it’s my blog so fuck it… my list in no particular order: keep in touch with more of my friends continue to grow as a person learning to let go and letting myself heal learn to stick to my budget move out of north bend get my OWN place in seattle

Jan 5th

“But the struggles make you stronger and the changes make you wise and happiness...”

– (via littlemiss) (via blinksoflife) (via quote-book) (via iamblessed)

Dec 30th

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Dec 30th

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the last goodbye

i don’t hate you. i pity you and those you call your friends. i don’t hate your sister. i forgive you.

Dec 30th

i seem only to write when im pissed but hey...

don’t analyze my relationship. you don’t know shit. just because i’m a certain zodiac sign, doesnt mean shit with me. you dont know me like he does or my best friend. i havent been ‘playing the cards’ with him…where the hell do get off of coming with that? am i in love with him? hell yes, i havent been this happy with someone in so long if not ever, i’m...

Dec 29th

Dec 8th

been through alot the past few months since ive left bellevue, i felt like i was getting out of a really bad relationship and the only person that was watching sink was tiff. then i met krystle, and she became someone in my life that i needed. i am and still living with her and things have been interesting per say…she’s a handful, she a girl with a good heart, good intentions but has a...

Nov 18th

Oct 24th

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as it starts

so i was having a decent morning till afshari calls me up asking me for m oney…money thati do not have right now, because i need it for myself…and asking me when my next paycheck is

Oct 6th

my current frustrations

right now as the start of my week, i finally get paid from working at spirit and prolly my last check from them so i’m flippin happy as hell going to the bank to deposit it and i find out that my checking account has been closed off due to a negative balance. ive had a negative balance for quite sometime but i was making deposits to get it back down to zero and have sme money in my account....

Sep 30th

dammi! dammit! dammit! don’t do this to me…

Sep 24th

Sep 23rd

on the way down

updates, updates updates….i moved out, impulsively again. but i had good reason this time i swear!!! i had a fall out with my mom who now i know is fuckin insane. so apparently im an asian white trash whore, and i wont ever find a decent guy in my life that is only good enough to meet in a white trash bar (apparently this means paul), but wait, a majorirty of men i dated may have been...

Sep 22nd

FUCK YOU. i’m out.

Sep 14th

my slow process

i’m too damn nice for my own good. when i think im doing the right thing, i end jeopardizing myself, my own mental stability. its been almost a year from where i was last year… holy shit…things have changed. everything i ever knew was falling down on me and i didnt know how to stop or fix it. i was overwhelmed with everything in my life. on e year later i havent completely lost...

Sep 11th

thank you

Aug 30th

its been up and down alot right now, meds are kicking in time for another sleep

Aug 28th

you’re an idiot and i dont like you! god help you, for taking advantage of my parents kindness

Aug 26th

i didn’t ask to be found, you lying sack of shit. you’re fuckin 30yrs old act like it.

Aug 19th

*evil laugh*

so i just met shaun’s ex gf…skinny as a twig…mom thinks that sexy…*laugh* oh the perception of beauty…i LOVE my curves…to me thats sexy!

Aug 19th

Aug 16th

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Aug 16th

108 notes

okay that pic is just wrong….

Aug 10th

i have disowned on facebook. *sigh* and im back in high school

Aug 4th

godbless blogs.

“life is prcocious is the most peculiar way, sister pychosis don’t got alot to say..” how is this pertaining to you??? fuckin hell really? are you really that fuckin stupid and self-centered that you think everything i fuckin post is about you??? maybe you should educate yourself with music first, cos it has nothing to do with you!! so real maturity steps in and you dont have...

Aug 3rd

fuckin christ.

now you tell me to go to hell, and then call me a whore. fuckin hell you give me a headache…just stop.

Aug 3rd

i introduce to you my sister...

Sai Tarra Yesterday was exceptionally astonishing with an unseen ever of rubbishy behavior of “High- Class” Human species (false claim). Today, before doing a self-claim of “High-Class/ Sophistication,” ensure for an empirical precision from other mirrors instead of self-claim. What a rubbishy shameful! Keep in mind… reaction is a perfectly pair with action—-...

Aug 2nd

*headdesk* multiple times….

Jul 31st

Home.

Another summer day Is come and gone away In paris and rome But I wanna go home Mmmmmmmm Maybe surrounded by A million people i Still feel all alone I just wanna go home Oh I miss you, you know And i’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you Each one a line or two i’m fine baby, how are you? Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough My words were cold...

Jul 26th

Jul 25th

To experience love, we must go inside. When you experience real love you get into a state which is beyond words. You are filled with a joy that goes beyond all emotions. True love is the love of the inner Self. - Swami Muktananda…

Jul 24th